Dance has came to an end

Well dance recitals came  to an end last weekend all 3 girls did a FABULOUS job.. I am so proud of them all I have pics of Carley and Emika also Eve but Eve's Will not be on here due to security reasons just so you know. so here are pics

 Oh Stella we love her

 Miss Dee she is so cute! we love her to

 Emika and Mrs. Ashton we are so sad to see her go and we will miss her dearly this has been Emika teacher for a couple years and they have such a special bond. We have built an awesome friendship and we will miss her terribly. Emika got out of the car that night and was crying and I said what is wrong and she goes I already miss my Mrs. Ashton . We love you girl !!

 and them again

 Carley

 This was my favorite dance this year and Mekesha Thank you for making her more sassy then she already is LOL We love her !! We love Mekesha to you are great thanks for all the hard work you do. WE love you and look forward to a great year next year!!

Eve did a great her first year also and loved it good job girls one proud mamma !! 

Back to visits

Well got a call today form the case worker for Eve and I guess we are back to visits with mom. The therapist  totally against it so is the case worker but moms lawyer is wanting them back. So any how I get to drive 88 miles to and home tomorrow and its alot . So I talked to Eve today about it when I got home and she is scared to death so I had to reassure her that it will be OK. So for the most part I feel bad about it. We all really still do not know Eve's story cause she has been taught her whole entire life that its always top secret  and that we LIE all the time and the truth is not the truth. So any how I will let you all know how it goes tomorrow . I'm not to happy about it either.

oh my !!

Well its been crazy at our house and lets just say not the KIDS. Well any way . Camron comes home yesterday and says mom I think Tinkerbell (the cat) is back and I said Cam I don't think so . He goes well there is a lot of meowing over by the shed. I'm going to go see. I'm like no you need to clean your room first and the basement OK he says. He gets that all done and says mom I'm going out side so I said OK. So here is the conversation Cam. mom I think you better come out side . Me WHY? Cam . Mom that meowing noise is Cabella (our dog) had Puppies. Me . are you flipping kidding me. Oh boy ! Jesse I told you she was pregnant hes not nice about it. So needless to say I go outside and there are puppies in my dog run. I thought maybe she was pregnant and she was up and running with the kids yesterday morning and I seen her a couple of times but she did not bark when the kids got home so. yeah she was in the dog run. She had 8 one dyed so there is 7. They are all very cute. They have been very attached to her so I don't know how many male or females there is yet. Need less to say if any one wants a puppy they are FREE I have a friend who is getting first dips. But she wants Carely to pick it out and I think we have figured that one out. Am I keeping any I am not sure. I know Jesse hates dogs and got us the last one so we are kind of up in the air and not sure yet !!

How fostering effects our own children

So I know this is a a little different of a post. But I think it is something that some of us over look. and this is just from my experience with having just Eve in our home. I don't think people realize that it also effects our children.. Yes these foster kids come in and have more problems then what we say and we really do not know the extent of abuse these kiddos have been threw until we open our heart and minds to them. and they trust us and open up. Sometimes we will never know what these kids have been threw. So I want to focus on with this post how it has affected my kids. There is kids at school that (bully) and I am sick of it. And yesterday Carley was the target of it all saying that she is mean to Eve and Carely and Eve have there days by all means. We have taught and told are kids there will be kids that come and go. you just need to open your heart mind and just love these kids. Carely has done an amazing job with Eve and I am proud of her. I have told Eve that she can not let these kids treat her sister like that cause all in the end it is Carely who has opened up her heart and loved her and has also opened up her bedroom to her and her life. So these people and kids that are not in this foster circle do not get that. It just doesn't affect these kids that come in to our home it affects our whole family. So some may be asking why but your kids threw this and self. One we knew what to except when we took fostering classes and all that. Why do I do this? One this is a service act from Heavenly Father and I believe I was called to do this,.How do I know that ? Heavenly Father works in mysterious ways and I had number of answers to my prayers about this. This fostering children is very close to heart and my families heart. Why do I put my kids threw it ? Again it is a service act and families serve together  and who else would take these kids in. IS fostering worth it? Absolutely I love fostering Eve she is our first placement for the most part she does great gets a long with every one. Does she have her moments? YES what kid doesn't. So basically I just want you to know yes my kids struggle and especially Carley. Carely knows we love her and we love everyone that is what the Savior taught was to love one another and we do our best! I want people to know its just not about the kids we foster it also affects our own kids in the matter. I am so thankful for the people that I have met threw foster and how we have all become good friends I am so thankful for the person that let my child have a melt down yesterday (also a good friend from foster) We will call her Amazing. I want her to know How thankful I am for her and for coming into my life when she did. and for excepting Carley. For being my friend when I know I am losing my mind and for telling me you know its okay to cry its okay to throw a fit. Thank you Amazing you know who you are. You are the best and I have to say what you said yesterday . For those who are not in this foster circle please butt out. you have no idea. The way to help a foster parent In my opinion is to not only ask how is your foster doing but also how are you doing? how are your kids? can I help you with anything? Alot of the times has foster parents we need. A hug! For someone to tell us we are doing a great job just has mothers we need those things and basically that is all we need. Sorry if this makes no sense to some. I am just a Mom, a mom with tons of love and a mom who knows what my child goes threw. I want my kids to know how much I do love them and am so thankful for them and the love they show. Even when know one is watching. I want to thank my husband Jesse I love you babe and thanks for all you do !!

A little update on Eve

Well sorry I have not blogged much about Eve lately  this is our crazy time of year with Dance and stuff and I love it its just a little crazy at our house right now. So Eve is doing great she has had a couple medical issues that we are still trying to pin point. She has lost some weight being here she came to us 106 lbs and is now down to 84 which is good for her being that she is only 8 now she was not feeling to good Thursday and the school called and said she was not feeling to well so I went and got her and took her to the DR she had alot of impaction in her ear and they removed it she had a dizzy spell and then she also did it again Sat night so we are hoping that is all it is. I also think maybe some stress. She is on no visits with mom and mom is out of rehab right now and stationed where Eve came into state custody. Mom is very upset that she can not see Eve right now because of the progression in therapy she is not going to see mom until  maybe next month so we will see and that all depends on the therapist . which is wonderful I love our therapist she is so good with her and I am so thankful for her and the  support she gives me. SO that is all for now!!

What a great night !!

So Jesse and I decided last week hey Sawyer Brown is coming in concert and I am like we have to go! So I bought my tickets last week and verily good seats did not end up staying in them and all in all had a great night It was amazing. Jesse had been to see him before and I had not oh my best show ever and a tone of fun it was amazing. Seen lots of peeps we knew and we had a heck of a good time. We ended up down on the actual floor they really do but on a heck of a show and it was so FUN !! Thanks Jesse again for an amazing date .. I told Jesse this concert is defiantly one I will attend every year that he comes!!! It was a Blast ..Aaron Watson opened for him great singer !! it was great !!! This song was dedicated to Lane Frost and it was amazing brought tears to my eyes. Growing up around the Rodeo circuit this was a great song and wonderful dedication to those cowboys and cowgirls !! Also this one by Sawyer Brown reminds me of where I live now and the dirt road we travel every day !!! Thank you babe for a great night and living it up like old times and for being my husband. You are the best !! Jesse always seems to get the crowd stirred up and last night he did it .. I am so glad to be Jesse's Girl !!

Our Date

So Jesse and I was able to sneak an over night date and had lots of fun so here are some pics and what we did !! Thanks Jessica for Watching my kiddos

 In October of 1996 Jesse and I meet in the very spot. We meet at Wheeler Farm he gave into my life with open arms and today he is still my best friend I love you so much baby and appreciate all you do I am so glad you came into my life when You did although we still do have life challenges I love you truly thanks for standing by my side everyday I love you handsome

 The very dance floor we danced on to Kenny Chesney Me and You always babe

 Our fun new little toy it is so fun it was an awesome day with you sweet heart thanks

 hes so stink hot and sexy

and the end of our ride we got stuck. thank you to the guy who followed are tracks and helped us out. Thank you Jesse for a great day also Friday we went to dinner and to see fast and furious 7 and it was awesome just a little FYI he does not dye of lethal injection stupid you tube !! It was a great movie and a great date thanks babe and thanks again Jessica for watching my kids !! 

Easter Weekend

Easter was great!! We celebrated on Saturday cause that was the best day for us to get together  with Jesse's family so it was fun we did a little Easter egg hunt and all that BBQ and of course lots of FUN !! We also had intentions of buying Jesse a new mountain bike and ended up buying something else it made an awesome date this past week end with my hubby!! so that will be in the next blog post. so any ways back to Easter It was fun and here are some pics

there is Easter 

Wrestling pics

Wrestling has came to an end. We are proud of Camron for this season he did great!! Here is pics they took yesterday thank you Team Take down coaches you were great !!

our Little Man good Job buddy 

April is child abuse prevention month

April is Stop child abuse awareness month this is a thing that we never know when or who it is happening to. Please speak up for these kids you know are in danger. These kids are helpless and sometimes just think it is normal for them sad right ?

In honor of kids being abused where blue ..