Update on Foster

So yes we have decided this is what will be best for now and The next step is an interview so we have that on December 13th so it will be  good then we will do weekend classes in Jan or March so we both can take them and then we will go from there. We are so exited about this new journey and hope to help some kids out. Even if they are placed with us a short while . We will love them like are own kids and hope to have a Positive impact on there lives.. Thank you to everyone who has supported us threw this process we are very exited to be a helping family.. love you all ..

So what else can we say.. We are ready for TURKEY day.. It is one of my favorite times of year and I love it.. I love spending time with my cute little family has well has extended we really all do get a long and it is a wonderful thing.. I love having siblings so close that we can hang out often and that my kids have a great relationship with there aunts and uncles and cousins..

tis the season

So has many of you know these two holidays coming up is my absolute favorite .. I love Thanksgiving I mean really who does not love to eat... Well I do .. and I love the time I get to spend with are families.. I love that we live so close to Jesse's family and are able to spent time together all the time.. And of course Christmas in are NEW house this year.. is going to be AWESOME and we are so thankful for out blessings and the things we are able to do together  so watch for pictures to follow these events.. I am sure I will have lots of pictures .. to follow these events... Tree will be up soon and the descion of where to put it is the main question in are house.. right now think we might have it under control the kids want it downstairs and I am thinking NOT until it is done.. LOL

What ???

Okay any ways.. from my recent post.. So we investigated adoption a little farther and Yes we  think it would be great us.. but Now we have decided that we are just going to go threw with Foster care with the option to Adopt .. So some of you are honestly saying do they really think that they can just adopt a kid from foster care.. Well you can if they are placed in your home but foster care also wants them with there birth parents so the birth parents have only a few months to get there act together .. so that is what we are invest gating a Little more.. Jesse is all for it but he is a little worried about me having an attachment to this child that comes in to our home and has to be removed this is the way I look at it and here is a little of my input on it.. So I have to put myself in Tara mode for sure... 1. If my kids were placed would i want them in a safe place and a family to care for them or a shelter with no one to care for them.. 2. I have prayed about this and I think I have an answer it all comes to SERVICE and LOVE ... and is that not what we are here for.. So if we are able to Adopt that would be a blessing but I know if we do this it will be a great blessing to our family has well ..

Then the other things to think about is...I am probably going to get my tubes untied cause I have regretted it from day one and hoping to find a Dr that will do it so that is are other step... Insurance does not cover it but all in all the chances are pretty good.. so that is what is going on still doing a lot more looking in to it all and PRAYING for sure.. and a lot of Patience .. so that is were we are all at Now .. and we will be exited no matter what is thrown at us..

Some news and a NEW journey for us

So I was going to wait and tell everyone but... I need to still gather some more info and see how things go.. and If any one has any info on  this and knows where to lead us in the right direction that info will be great so just leave comments here on where to go.. okay enough blabbing .. LOL here is the news well how it started so here goes some more babbling okay has you all know in 2009 I got my tubes tyed thinking we were so done well Emika is getting older and we feel some thing is missing.. So I have looked into getting my tubes untied but there is no doctors willing to do that down here.. and it can be pricey and you never know if the whole pregnancy will work.. after being tied for 4 years. So the other night me and Jesse were driving home and I said to him what do you think about adoption and he says ya let's do it.. So we are looking into ADOPTION and we are so exited. I just need to gather more info and see what is the best route for us to go and we will enjoy sharing each process with you and hopefully by next year some time we will have all this said and done and welcome a New child into our home.. Now you guys are probably asking what are they looking to adopt well we want another BOY but we will def take a Girl if that is are option.. NOW your next question is probably well what AGE well we will  take anything from NEWBORN of course to TWO .. we just want some one younger that will fit into are little family.. and then of course we will take any Race.. We are exited for this new journey and exited to get things going it is all I have been researching on the Internet and it very interesting I need to talk to a couple people down here who have adopted and see what ways to approach that.. so if any one has any advice that they would like to share or now where to go it would be greatly appreciated .. We are exited to WELCOME a new member in this family so if any thing let us know thanks Friends and Family and here is are favorite pic of are crazy family

Family Pictures

Yes they are done and they turned out so CUTE thank you so much to my sister Jessica for doing them we are so exited we love them so much..

pink zebra

November is a great month to Join my team.. you buy  the 99.00 dollar kit and they give you 100.00 pink dollars to spend at the consultant store that is a AWESOME deal check it out.. give me a call if any questions or would like to sign up that is a way good DEAL ..

Contact me at sterling_1979@yahoo.com or 435-528-7033 thanks really this is an awesome deal and I am so exited !!! 

a note//

okay a few weeks a go I got this amazing Email from my sister Jessica .. I just loved it we had gone to lunch together and I said to her some times I just feel I have failed has a mother.. I feel I yell at my kids all the time just the things that I think us has mothers go threw.. I feel sometime me has a mother is a lot harder for one today's society is not an easy path at all and 2, my struggle with an ADHD child I love him to death and there are days I really struggle with him so it was great to get this letter and be able to spend this special moment with my sister.. so there was a little video with it and then here is the letter that she got.. It made me smile =)
As woman in general and a mom on top of it, I think we always tend to look at our flaws and only see things we can improve on. Sometimes you get a glimpse of REAL reality and what the world, our children, our spouses and most of all God, thinks of us!!! We are such beautiful talented and unique woman that are sent here for a reason. Life gets crazy with kids, EVERY mom knows that!! At the end of the day as long as we do the best that we could that day that is all that matters. Our children look past our crazy hair days and smeared makeup and messy house and yes even our yelling and LOVE us for just being their mommy!!! They will always hold on and cherish those moments that you tuck them close just to love on them and do those "little" things with them. All our hours spent as mom's nurturing and cleaning and loving on our babies will only be whats left in their little heads!! I love you Tara and I know your kids do also!!! 

Is this not the most amazing thing ever.. I love each one of my kids so much and am so thankful for them in my life they are truly amazing children and when they grow up I can not wait for them to have the feelings I do when they have kids.. I know they will cry and come to me and say MOM I understand how you felt I see why we did the things we did and I will be truly blessed when they come to me for the advise they need.. I want you kids to know how much I do love you and cherish all are special moments you all are very unique individuals and I love you so very much even when I do YELL.. and I am so thankful for my sister Jessica who sent this to me knowing my struggles has a mother and who loves my children also and there craziness 

Hunting

So ya Jesse decided to get his Small game .. so we can get a pheasant .. I love pheasant it is one of my favorites so him and Carley decided to go.. Carley is are slash girly girly slash let me hunt kind of a gal.. so then me and her have decided to take hunters Ed together so we are doing that now and hoping to be done with the online part soon,... so I can put in for the Deer hunt next year.. so we are exited.. I love going with Jesse so I am exited if I actually get to go this year with a Gun in hand.. I can not wait for these new family adventurous together,,, I am glad I have a husband who teaches me all this stuff also.. here is pics of when  they got back they did not get any thing but they had fun

love these two 

again 

he wanted to just shoot of the porch and I am like NO 

October feast and of course Halloween

so we decide to go to the corn maze with the family it was amazing and great fun.. We love spending every min that we can has a Family and we love each other .. LOL really we do .. 

now this is my type of maze.. 

Emika at the corn maze she was not to thrilled 

again she hates any thing scary.. 

my cute little family.. I just love my hubby and kiddos 

again every one looking 

the croft family 

some of the MacArt Family.. 

all the kiddos well not Trev with grandma and Jamie 

instead of carving pumpkins we paint pumpkins every year and they turned out great!! 

Carley and Emika 

camron 

little ANNIE I was so exited for this costume this year for her and it turned out perfect 

he was way exited 

the wicked witch... she has begged for this costume for years not 

at grandmas getting ready for the trunk or treat and we had a blast buckets were full .. 

all of them again 

these two kill me .. love them to pieces 

and we were glad to have Payton at the trunk or treat with us 

they really due love there Aunt AMY