February Run Down

So any way its been a min or two since I blogged lets Start with This (Broken ) has lost  the harness we went on Feb 25th to the Orthopedic and YES we are healed xrays looked Amazing he is a brand-new baby.. He has is cranky moments but I think is adjusting well .. We all just love him and cuddle him its great News ... Sass well he is Sass had his first therapy session and he is very angry and violent so we have to keep a close eye on that but he seems to be doing well he got sick last week and I was like really Night and day from my kids he cried and cried cause he was sick ,, those of you how know my kids we never know they are sick at all .. Needless to say he had Strep and he was mad I made him get a shot but with baby we tohught that was the best option.. He had a visit that day and Im still not that impressed with mom and dad they drive me CRAZY ... what do you do though I'm really struggling with these parents and I try and remain a positive relationship just for the kids and if there is reunification I would like to keep in touch but  this one is TUFF .. I come home every Wed and cry or am very angry ;(

Carley is doing great and such a big help.. Its nice when shes home she tends to broken and I can at least go take a shower or switch over laundry without having to stress ... Camron he is cam.. him and Sass get along okay and he loves Broken .. School is going well for both and I am so glad Car brought back up her grades.. Emika is doing Fabulous and she loves baby she is doing great ... She loves broken and for the most part gets a long with Sass she will But him in his place gotta love her.. Jesse and I are doing this shift Jesse is on his CRAZY and okay at the same time he is off a few more days which will be super nice during Summer and Farm season .. love him so much and am so thankful for his love and support we both celebrated our 37 year bdays I can not believe how time flies by.. I'M so thankful for everyone and there love and support and am so thankful for good friends and family .. So has of today I feel I have got the crap that has been going around I don't want it.. so am trying my best to rest and take my vitamins and do all that prevent stuff .. Broken has 2 month check up tomorrow so he will have shots and Sass has therapy again tomorrow I still need to get him in for a well child care check too maybe Dr will look at him also .. well there is a little of Feb

little update

So we are surving with a newborn at our house.. I went right back in to mom mode he does OK during the night the 1st week he was in so much pain and it was so sad and hard for him to move his little leg he would move it out of just of reflex but would scream. We did get brother on Friday and he is 6 and in 1st grade he is doing great we will call him Sass. He is a little sassy and I seen a total different side of him after our 1st visit. I had to have a little heart to heart on how we treat people. so It was not fun this case is driving me crazy and there is nothing I can do has a Foster parent and it SUCKS. Dad gets visits with Broken and he fussed most the time at the visit and when I walked in Dad was holding him Its so hard to see that the person that severely abused this child gets to hold him like REALLY .. makes me sad.. and who knows if they will even charge dad it just makes me so sad this poor little guy.. Good News is I took him again for more xrays and it is 75% better from the time we got him and he is starting to move his leg a little better so that makes me so happy he is a happy little guys eats a ton.. so that is update on baby we go to the Orthopedic on the 25th and we are hoping for 100% healed so we can lose the Harness ;) OK let me tell you a little more about Sass!! He is hungry all the time I fed him and he says mom when is dinner or I'm hungry so I wonder if we have some kind of food issue so we will keep watching I still need to make Dr apt for him and do a therapy and dentist so needless to say we did get him a haircut and he is going to Wrestle so YEAH it should be good he gets along OK with the kids he fits right in so that always makes me happy .. Jesse does not know what to think sometimes but I love helping these kids and believe I was called to do this.. I have a lot of people ask how are you going to let this baby go and i just say my job now is to get Broken better and love him and I can grief later .. my job right now is to be his mommy and he does not need to feel me grief of losing him. Sass we will probably have 90 days then we will start a trial home placement with mom and then Broken probably 180 days.. So for now we just love him and Sass.. thanks to my friends and family for all your love and support and my wonderful Ward family you all are truly amazing .. and I appreciate and love you all

Broken

Good little guy got here around 8 pm on Saturday night had a great night he went to bed at about 1030 and woke up at 530 am so .. Good little baby.. He does get a little uncomfy at times cause of his break he is in a harness makes diaper changing lots of fun.. all in all this case will go back eventually which makes me super sad dad is only 19 they go to court Tues and are petintionig for older brother to also be removed and I'm sure we will also take him in also.. so we will know more this week about that . going to take him to Dr today for a follow up visit so hope all is healing well.. love the little guy already this will be a very difficult let go. But this is why I do it I want the best for these kids and will give them love why they are here and miss them when there gone.. Baby sleeping now going to get busy doing some house work thanks everyone for your love and support

Well

Well our 2nd placement is hopefully on his way .. We are going to call him Broken clearly a blog Name .. so I got the call last night at about this time and they were waiting for a warrant to be signed . I will be having the same case worker (YIPPEE) .. He is a 1month old baby boy with a broken leg. Case is kind of Crazy,, I was on my way to get him today from the hospital and hit a massive snow storm so CPS said they would just bring,, I am super nervous Exited and getting impatient with waiting he was suppose to come last night but Cps got to the hospital and they weren't able to release him so here we patiently wait got a text from Cps saying they were just waiting to be released little guy will be on some strong medicine and I will not be subbing much any more in fact not at all this week I am going to stay home with the little one.. so needless to say I'm freaking out wish me good luck :0

Yes I am alive

Well we are alive and doing well. I just haven't had time to blog or busy doing other things, When Eve left we all struggled and yesterday would of made a year she had come into our home, She left on Sept 25th and now its Nov and I'm finally blogging about it,, so sorry. It was ROUGH one of the toughest things Ive ever had to do. Our caseworker came over at 3 and hung out I don't even think she left tell about 430 and it was when she thought I was ready. Mrs. Amazing and her cute little family came over has well for one more talent show (what we live for with Mrs.Amazing kids.) It was good and fun to watch the kids in this element has they are comfortable with each other. Our case worker watched it has well. I teased our case worker for weeks that I was going to need Pepsi and chocolate she brought me a 2 liter of Pepsi and a big bag of chocolate bless her heart, has we were saying goodbye Eve said bye to Jesse first and very tender moment he said we love you and if you ever need anything you can call us. and she lost control has I and Mrs. Amazing did and then cam just gave her a hug and said bye. I and Carley and Mrs. Amazing and Emika walked her out to the car and I told her I loved her and would miss her and to always know she has a place here and in my heart. She was a Mess I was a mess , Mrs . amazing was a mess but I was so thankful for her being here . Our case worker left here crying and that is a true moment.. I have talked to Eves mom and she is doing well I got a pic of her on Halloween and she looks amazing and is doing great she is in Dance and I did what I was suppose to has a foster mom to Eve. We miss her and are hoping we can go visit her soon and take her some stuff she left here.. SO we hope we can do that SOON..

We have not got another placement call but our keeping our fingers crossed. We have got shelter placement calls but have not taken them the first one was for a boy camrons age but also lives in the valley we live in so we decided NO we know the kid not a good Idea. and another one was for a 13year old boy and a 2 and 3 year old that we had no info on. I didn't take them cause I cant have a 13 year old boy with my daughters. So we are just patiently waiting .. I hope soon .. So only  time will tell .. so there is a little update and then later I will post family pics and that adventure later today. So far know one has called me to Sub today so I am off to clean my closet and bathroom .. hope you all have a great day :)

Friday is the day ;(

Well I have been full of emotion this week and am not sure how I am going to hold up on Friday.. I have been packing Eve's stuff making sure I have everything and I think I have. We will miss her deeply she is so funny .. She has asked me twice do I need to bring these totes back to you when I come and have a sleep over and I am like NO you can keep them. So for those of you who don't know Eve is leaving and she is leaving Friday. We will miss her She is going back to bio mom and dad and I feel good about it. I have seen them progress and do what the state has asked for them to be for them to be reunited I am exited but I am still sad. Here I have taken this little girl in my home and have loved her and taught her like my own its been good . She is really good kid and I love her. Mom and dad said we will maintain contact and will I am sure be seeing her again so I am happy that we have maintained a healthy relationship with them. Eve has mixed emotions about it all but I am sure she is ready to go but will miss us.  I will post more on this topic again after my emotions go down after Friday ..

School YIPPEE

I can not believe school has started and summer has come and gone.. This year I can not believe I have a middle scholar and YES she was freaking out,, I love her though and am so proud of her she is an amazing kid .. But she did come home and love it and decided she was not going going back to 5th grade.. This Year Camron is in 3rd grade and has MRS. McDonald I am so exited for him to have her. He so far has been doing super !! Eve is also in 3rd grade this year and has Mrs. Bartholomew here is the BAD NEWS though Eve is leaving to go back with mom and dad which we are also super exited and nervous about. She is ready to go back she had an over night visit and said she misses them. she has been such a joy and we are glad we have had a positive relationship with mom and dad to where we have made it where she can call us and come visit us any time so we are happy but also sad she will be leaving. she has grown so much here and was super exited for school and such to start. We will miss her the day is Sept 25th that she leaves I will foster again YES !! So we will be awaiting our next journey.. On to Emika Stella she is actually in Kindergarten again a full day and seems to be loving it again .. so here are pics

 She still wants to be just a princess

 I love her !!

 Camron has gone from cop to Sheriff

 she was waiting for Car to come out the door and she wants to be a firefighter

 she was a little nervous she wants to be a teacher or hair styles or a photographer

 Lol I had to do this one I did not cry but had alot of missed emotions for sure

 They were so ready to go

 By her afternoon door again Mrs.oliver

 Oh Camron he is a cheezer

well we were super NERVOUS I love her ,, Good luck kiddos in all your accomplishments this year the SKY is the Limit and I love you and am so proud of each of you Love mommy and daddy ... GO Sterling's