Visit yesterday

So we had a visit yesterday and it was just very hard on Eve. One we will no longer be having visits with mom she is headed to rehab for the next 3 months so she will have a two hour visit next week with just dad and I don't know if she likes the idea. Has mom goes and visits we do not know how that will work letters or phone calls my personal opinion I don't think kids should be aloud in the rehab center. and besides that the rehab center is already an hr away from where we have visits and we already drive an hour and half a way each week for a visit. So yeah I am just kind of dumb founded. I am glad mom is getting the help and hope this helps her. I also heard we will no longer be having visits with dad has of the end of the month cause he has is sentencing and he is most likely going to prison. So yeah that is the the news we got yesterday. Eve is a Little discouraged about it all but we comforted her and told her that this mom and dad would continue to keep her safe and take care of her for has long has needed to. Has of grandma getting her we have not heard but with her in a different state and the case in another state it is very doubtful now. SO we will continue to have her and take care of her and enjoy this journey. The case worker feels good about all we have done and thinks a change would be to hard on the poor little thing so we will just have fun and enjoy her has we have. She is fitting in more and more each day and has a rough road ahead and I will do any thing to make this has smooth has possible for her. My personal thoughts are I would love just for her to stay finish out the school year be able to go to dance recitals and continue being with us.. Keep us in your prayers just for the safety of Eve and her happiness and well being !!! Have a great weekend. I have lots to due today Visiting teaching, science fair project, clean house and hope to get all sheet rock up in Carley's room and taped before the long wall move so I can paint and get her moved down there by the end of Feb that is my goal.. Wish us luck !!!

some thoughts

Well any way It has been a very crazy week at our house. One my grandma passed away on the 19th of this month she was 79 and I know she is in a better place and with her mom and dad and my fav uncle Jeff. I just have missed emotions about it all it was my last grandma living and she will be deeply missed for sure. The good thing was we were able to see lots of family and catch up with some cousins. Its sad at how close we were and now we hardly see each other let a lone talk .. well other then that things here have been okay.. I am in a  slump today and just don't know what to do. I am really thinking about going back to work or at least maybe subbing at the schools. I don't know though. Kids are all doing well and we go for another visit Friday with Eve. She had therapy Monday and they are are wanting her to have less visits or less time on her visits like an hour instead of 2.. so we will see what that brings they know she has suffered some serious trauma but they just cant get to the bottom of it. they are thinking about bringing a therapist down from Primaries cause of it all so we just wait and see has of right now the councilor says she just feels safe with us. Which is what she needs.. So yeah all my kids seem to be doing well its hard some days for them but I always Tell them it is not there choice if we foster it is ours and that is what we have wanted to do. we do hope to adopt one day a younger child.. but only time will tell with that. right now we are just enjoying this journey and life has it has thrown at us.. We have had Emika home the past couple days from school cause I thought she had strep but instead she has hand foot and mouth good thing is we caught it pretty early and it was only in her mouth so she stayed home yesterday and today and is all healed. Just wanted to take today has an extra percussion cause it is Wen and are crazy day.. We have wrestling practice today to and Camron is seeming to like it YEAH !!! Any ways I guess I better get something done today.. Have a good day and rest of the week

finally pics for Dec

 this is Emika at dance she loves to perform

 carley was a little crappy

 of course jingles he left a note Christmas eve and we will be getting a new elf this year !!

 every year we go to Temple Square this brings back a lot of child hood memories for me

 oh and I love this Man so much

 I thought this picture was just gorgeous of Mary and Jesus has a child

 Emika and Santa at Jason's house

 Camron was mad cause he had just got a video from Santa  that he was on the Naughty list so he was MAD !! so its a pricless pic

 YEs he did sit on Santa's lap.. I love you baby so much

 me and our kids with Santa cause I was not able to  go to the one for the coal mine party !!so we did it here at Jason's love my cute little kidds I have another one with Eve

 This is Eve and the only reason Why I am posting this one is cause you really cant see her face just a side few other wise I do not post pics of my foster kids !

 Camron at the ward party

 the Grinch showed up at the family party Christmas eve

 Then we came home and Santa showed up thank you to who ever was all involved in this we love this ward family so much

 Christmas Recital 2014

 this is what the kids and hubby have been doing love this man

he is so dang handsome and I am one lucky girl thanks baby

a little bit of a slacker :(

Well things have been going very well here just been super crazy and busy. So last Monday I had a really good thing happen and it was amazing. I have had a couple friends mention body talk to me and at first I was like what okay. Well with my depression and everything that has happened in the month of Dec I was like well I am going to give it a try. Well it was amazing and I feel really good. Alot of mine was built up because of my parents divorce and things that have happened the past few years and that I carry a lot of guilt and I was able to let go a lot of that and carry on I also was able to work on scars and that being my appendix scar it is having a hard time healing on the inside and other parts of my body just don't want to work without the appendix it was amazing to walk away feeling so good about my self and to have peace of mind. I will be going back in a couple weeks to get some other things done. Its amazing how your body holds all this stuff in and how you can feel like crap cause of it .. Jesse also went on Friday and it was good for him to realize a lot of things from the past.. SO the PAST WE DON'T LIVE THERE ANYMORE !!! Its been nice to have my old husband back. I was very skeptical and no I am a firm BELIEVER in Body talk its amazing !!

Well lets start with Eve visits have been going well its a long ways to go for a visit but they are going well the  case worker says they are a little weired but going well mom and dad had court yesterday  and I am assuming all went well. I can not believe we have already had her two months. Grandma is still waiting on papers from Slc so we are pro still looking at having her a couple more months. She started dance and tumbling last week and did great !!! She seems to like it . We are still enjoying her here and are ready to bring on 2015 with her. We have to go to therapy once a week and its going well. all in all we are glad we can serve and give her a good home until grandma can get her.

Carely is doing super duper Awesome she just got a new hair cut and it looks super cute but she hates it! ( she didn't brush her hair right so that is why we had to cut it = Knots) so she is still loving 5th grade and has grown a lot this year I can not believe she will be 11 on the 21st of this month it is crazy pre teen city here we come. She is still dancing and loving it she does great she is a huge help to me and is an awesome babysitter and big sister  I sure do love her and appreciate all she does. Even if it is with an attitude.

Camron well he is doing great he drives us all crazy most days but we love him he is staring wrestling prob sometime this week he is wrestling for team take down and I think he will do great I am exited for him to be able to due some thing he loves and to be better at it. He is a great kid just very busy he also is doing very well in school and becoming an awesome reader. We love him so much

Emika is doing great she is a lot of fun she loves kindergarten but hates doing her home work most days and she is getting better also. We still hope to get to the bottom of her learning disability. She loves dance and tumbling still and has lots of fun. I love watching her learn and grow. We love her sass and everything else she brings.

All in all we are all doing great and are ready for a day> I am honestly ready for another placement with Eve and have been praying for another one soon . liscnig has changed some of there rules so I have a little bit of stuff to due but not to bad. I love still staying home. Just wish money grew on trees and that I could help a little more that way but Jesse says No that I am here for the kids and that is my calling and I love it. not going to say my house is super duper clean. Some days I don't want to do it other days I clean a lot. All in all I am glad I can stay home especially in the snow and days I do go work out though most days and it makes me feel good. Well I guess I better go get ready to work out and go make my bed. Hope every one has a great day !!!

Jan 2015

SO first off I just want to wish My wonderful husband a Happy birthday to him.. I love you honey so much and am so thankful for him in my life and I look forward to another great year with him.. thanks babe for all you do for us and this little family.. ME & You

Next I did got to the Cancer Dr yesterday and I have stage 1 cancer that was in my appendix I do not have to go threw treatment and they are hoping that it just stayed in the appendix they say it may spread and is where this spreads to is either the colon or most likely the ovaries So I have to kind of be care ful and what that pain there.. most likely if it does go there I will just need another surgery later on.. So we are just keeping our fingers crossed that it doesn't go any where. The other thing is that this cancer is very rare its like 1 in a million people that get it and it happens in 1% of those people so of course I would be the odd ball of it all.. So I am healed and I just have to go back in 3 months to the cancer Dr again. So needless to say I really did like this Dr yesterday and how he explained it all it was good to know why and that. So I am doing good and am okay with all of that was said. The good thing is the tumour is out and hoping for better result in the future.. Thanks every one for all your prayers !!! Also thanks to my husband for going with me yesterday and understanding my thought process .. Love you baby

Merry late Christmas and happy New year

So we had a wonderful Christmas my kids basically all were pretty happy. Not to mention the community I live in and love brought love and good cheer has always the benefit of living in Axtell and I love it all these giving people and who except us for who we are in and what we believe in. I really do Love this ward family so much. So Christmas eve was great Jesse had to work so we let the kids open up there Christmas Jammie's before he left. Eve was quit surprised that we let them open a gift on Christmas Eve it was good .. We had Jesse's family Christmas party so it was good to be out of the house a while. Then it was good when Jesse got home and we had a lovely surprise at our house that night a Santa showed up to out house with a present for the kids and some games. That Is the reason I love this ward. No we really did not need the help but this ward never seems to amaze me .. I love it.. So lets do a little up date on each kid.. So first Carley is doing great she got her I pod back for Christmas and was super duper exited.. she got duct tape and yarn and some craft stuff that she likes to do. Clothes boots and all that fun stuff to.. Camron got what he wanted and his remote control truck and a few other things.. boy stuff of course is a lot easier then all these girls.. Eve on the other hand got barbies, a comforter and some movies books I think she was pretty overwhelmed that morning we have been going to visits once a week in Beaver its been okay Its just a lot of driving and making sure we spend time with each kid our kids sometimes go with us just depending on if Jesse is off or what not >> Carley has been amazing to watch the kids when just Jesse and I go.. are caseworker is still just amazing and understanding has ever.. Thank goodness .. Emika got a doll and barbies and little girl things and she loves it all.. I was glad it was all over and that we did have a very Merry Christmas and a fun New year it was nice cause Christmas day we just hung out watched movies and snuggled around the house.. It was a fun new year are neighbors the Nay family came over and we enjoyed food and of course the company and laughter Hope every one had a very Merry Christmas and a very Happy New year here it is 2015 !!!