in memory of aunt shawn

SO THIS IS IN MEMORY OF SHAWNA THERE IS NOT A DAY THAT GOES BY THAT I DO NOT THINK OF YOU. HOW IS MISS OUR LONG TALKS AND YOU ALWAYS BEING THERE TO SEE ME THREW. YOU WERE ALWAYS THE ONE I CALLED WHEN I WAS SAD OR JUST NEEDED A FRIEND. I MISS YOU SO MUCH AND TTHIS TIME OF YEAR HAS BEEN HARD THIS WAS THE TIME OF THE YEAR WHEN WE WOULD ALWAYS SEE YA. I JUST CANT BELIVE ITS BEEN ALMOST A YEAR SINCE U PASSED ON. I KNOW U DONT HAVE THE PAIN. AND I KNOW YOU ARE WITH YOUR DAD, I KNOW YA WOULD OF BEEN OKAY. I WISH THERE WAS MORE WE COULD OF DONE TO HELP YOU THREW WHAT YOU WERE GOING THREW. I LOVE YOU AND MISS U SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!

Its been a while

so its been a while sorry my life is crazy i dident think one more kid would make such a differnce in life but she is great fun and getting so big!!!! so lets start with Emika Stella or little stella we call her she is so cute and growing so fst I cant belive she will be 5 months next month on the 10th crazzy. She had her 4 month check up and everything was good she wt 14 lbs somethins oz and cant rember how long but she is so dang cute she doesnt talk has much has the others did but she is a happy baby and we love her tonz.

Next Camron and he is a holy terror i dont know why i clean house just for him to destroy it, he has a fun peronality and is getting pretty sassy but he is funny he is talking so much more and loves his sisters likes to torture carley but she deserves it. He is 3 now and alot of fun.

Then there is are one and only carley and she is getting so big and smart she is learing to read and is getting very good at it she has lost 3 teeth this year and it is so fun watching her grow and she has an attituide somedays but we love her and she is such a good big sister and helps me out alot, she can be a drama queen sometimes though/she is still in all day kindergaten and loves it. so do we.

Jesse is still at the coal mine and loves every minute of it and so do I he is home alot more and alot closer to the kids. He is such a good daddy and husband I love him tonz and he is going to be having is 31 st bday on the 3rd and then I am not much to much behind him I couldnt ask for a better husband. LOVE YA BABE. Has for me I am adjusting to 3 kids around still i am still nusrsing the baby this has been my longest and I am so proud of my self I am losin my weight alot faster and just trying to keep up on my house which somedays I can do and other days I can not I dont know some pepole can do it/ I took a new job at the school has a reading tutor and i love it it's a nice break from my little ones. and i still work at the daycare and am still liking that. well mother hood is calling I still have alot on my mind though so I will Blog more later/

what has been going on in my world!!!

so its been a while lots of things been going and not alot of time to sit at the computer, so here we will give ya all a run down,first jesse and i are great jesse is stil loving his new job at the mine and i love that he comes home so much happier, he is truly amazing. I am going back to work next week after having 3 months of from having the baby i will be gald to go back even for just a couple hrs it will be nice, i am sad though 2 cause i have had all this time off and havent scraped book or anything for me but how well one day they wil get done.

Carley started kindergarten and goes all day it is nice in a way but sad, I cant belive how big she has got and how much she is learning we dont get what she learns until she is home playing school with camron she reminds me so much of me I dont like it cause the attitude, so mom i am sorry for everything i ever did, but she is my mini me. She can always make us smile when we are having a bad day, she is too funny, she loves pink she even told Jess yeasterday she loves pink so much she is going to have pink hair one day. So and she has bben a little sick latley, they think she has cyleic so we will see how she does on some medicine, but i want her to know that i love her so much and apperciate everything she does she is my helper and very good at it. I LOVE YOU CARLEY DEE AND AM SO PROUD OF YOU.

Then there is my little man Camron Jefffery and he is saying so much now, why is it we want our kids to talk then we cant get them to be quiet. I cant belive he is going to be 3 tommrow and everything the poor boy has been threw its amazing, for those that dont know Cam was very sick has a baby he got rsv when he was 3 months and it was the scariest thing i have ever bben threw, I thought I was going ot lose this presious baby boy, he was lifeflighted from gunnison hospital to primary childerns hospital and we were there for a few days, he had ear infection after ear infection and had tubes but in before he was 1. This little boy is a fighter and so strong willed, when he gets sick now it doesnt bother him at all in fact you hardley know he is sick. He loves carley so much and loves playong with her wheen she is home form school, he puts a smile on my face everyday just watching him play is so fun to watch and i love him so much.Camron i cant belive you are 3 man how time flys and you are truly and amazing little guy love ya buddy!!!

Then there is the baby I cant belive she is already 2 months, how and how I just love knowing that this presious little girl is a gift from my heavley father and we love her so much!! She is the princess, I love that she is smiling and coing now and am so gald she is healthy and i know that she will have life trials but for now i am so thankful that i can prevent those. I love cuddling with her and jsut holding her makes me smile. I love that she is named after my great grandma, and I love it when we call her Stella she just smiles, my great grandma was an amazing person inside and out and I know she took care of the baby in heaven and for that i am truly blessed, I love you baby girl and am so gald that our family is finly complete for now<

life update and new baby

we had are new addition on Aug 10th 2009 @5:55 am and she wt 6lbs 14oz and was 19 and half inches long/ and she is so pretty! her name is Emika Stella Sterling and such a joy.

so yeasterday i so wish i would of took my camera outside. my kids love to play out side and carley walked all the way around the field. well camron decided to take a short cut threw the pasture. well it wasn't a short cut cause it is a muddy mess and he literly got stuck!!! so he just sat there and i go out there and he says mamma i am stuck it took me a few min to pull him out so i am thinking about going to throw him out there just to get a pic, he is such a boy goota love them.

camron and daddy

my sexy man!!!

so we barrowed the neighbors back hoe to knock down some old corrals and to fix the driveway and camron loved going in it with. jesse he is turing in to a big time daddys boy. he fights over jesse with carley that it is daddy. and he say my daddy and it is so cute. so but jesse is an awesome dad and loves to do all the yard stuff with kids.

Ten years and counting

So i had this done and lost it. So we will try again! Well tommmrow Jesse and I wil be married 10 years i cant belive it. We met in october og 1996 and have been togther since i cant belive that is a very long time.We have had life and trails but we have gotten threw it. We have 2 beatiful childern and another on the way for some one like Jesse that is a suprise cause he said he was never getting married and never having kids, i guess i won on that one lol! But we have had an awesome time toghether. jesse is very wild and crazy and at times way to much for me but he is very fun and fun to be with he always buts a smile on my face and i am so happy that i met him and the way everything turned out. alot of pepole problll y thought we would of never made it this far but guess what we did it, Jesse is my soul mate my best friend and the best husband i could ask for we have had the oppurtinty of being sealed in the temple and that was awesom i am so thankful for him and all he does for our family he truly is a blesing in my life. He is an aweosme dad all though he never wanted kids his kids are is everything and he tryes to be tuff but he is tryly a remarkble dad and i love hom for that. I just want to let Jesse know how much i love him and everything that he does for our family and happy anniversery baby and to another great 10 years toghether i know we will do it love ya baby me and you! love tara

FARM LIFE AND FARM LITTLE BOY

So has alot of pepole know we live in a small little town called axtell and we have 15 acres, it has also been Jesses dream to be a farmer. well my kids are living it up also. CARLEY IS THE LITTLE FARM GIRL AND CAMRON IS DEFENTILY THE FARM BOY, I AM GALD FOR BATH TUBS AND THAT DIRT DOESNT BUG ME THAT BAD! SO WE HAVE ALL THIS DIRT TO PLAY IN AND THEY CANT PLAY IN THE REAL PRETTY DIRT (thats the brown dirt) they have to play in the BLACK DIRT REALLY BLACK DIRT. AND WHY CAN KIDS NOT LEAVE ON THERE SHOES AND SOCKS IN THE PROCESS . CAUSE MINE ALWAYS SEEM TO TAKE THEIRS OFF. SO ITS NOT ONLY THERE HANDS AND FACE THAT GET DIRTY BUT ITS IN BETWEEN THERE TOES TOO. SO HERE IS SOME PIC TO KNOW WHAT I AM TALKING ABOUT ENJOY MY LIFE.....

MOTHERS

SO BEING THAT IS MOTHERS DAY TODAY, I WOULD JUST LIKE TO SAY I HAVE ONE OF THE BEST JOBS IN THE WORLDOF BEING A MOMMY! I KNOW THAT THERE ARE DAYS WERE I AM LIKE HONESTLY WHAT WAS I THINKING. THEN THERE IS DAYS WERE MY KIDS HONESTLY SO MAKE MY DAY LIKE TODAY IT WAS SO CUTE CARLEY COME IN FROM OUTSIDE AND SHES ALL MOM HAPPY MOTHERS DAY AND BROUGHT ME IN SOME LILAC FLOWERS, AND I LOVE THAT CAMRON IS IN THIS NEW LITTLE WORLED OF DISCOVERY AND WORDS. LIKE WHAT YA DOING? AND ALL SORTS OF NEW WORDS A ND HE IS SO INTERESTED IN WANTING TO KNOW WHAT COLOR EVERYTHING IS IT IS SO CUTE EVERYTHING IS EITHER BLUE OR RED. SO I KNOW SOME DAYS I DONT FEEL LIKE THE BEST MOM IN THE WORLD, BUT I KNOW TO HAVE TO PRESIUUS KIDS AND ANOTHER ONE ON THE WAY. THAT IS SUCH A GIFT AND I THANK HEVENLEY FATHER EVERYDAY FOR MY KIDS AND A TRUE BLESSING THAT THEY ARE. THEY ARE TRULY MY GET UP AND GO IN THE MORING AND I LOVE EVERY MINUTE OF IT.

THE NEXT THING I WOULD LIKE TO ADD IS TO MY MOM FIRST OF AL SHE IS TRULY A REMARKBLE PERSON. WE HAVE HAD TUFF TIMES THREW THE YEARS AND I WONDER HOW SHE EVER DID IT AND I AM WHO I AM BECAUSE OF HER TODAY. MOM I JUST WANT TO SAY I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU EVERYDAY. AND CAN NOT WAIT TEL YOU COME BACK DOWN . I LOVE IT THAT WE HAVE THE REALATIONSHIP THAT WE DO HAVE AND THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR EVERYTHING THAT YOU DO FOR US AND OUR KIDS AND YOU ARE A VERY SPECAIL PERSON TO ME, AND I LOVE YA MOMMY.

THE NEXT PERSON WOULD BE MY WONDERFUL MOTHER IN LAW I AM SO THANKFUL TO BE MARRIED TO YOUR SON HE IS SO GREAT AND IS A TRUE BLESSING IN MY LIFE. YOU HAVE BEEN IN MY LIFE FOR A VERY LONG TIME AND YOU ARE TRULY A WONDERFUL MOM TO ME ALSO. I LOVE THAT I CAN JUST BE ME WITH YOU AND HANG OUT LIKE JUST GOOD OLD FRIENDS I AM SO THANK UL FOR EVERYHTING YOU DO FOR US AND THE FAMILY AND THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR JUST BEING YOU I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. SO NOW THAT I HAVE MADE MYSELF TEAR UP I BETTER BE DONE BUT I LOVE YA BOTH AND I ALSO CAN NOT FORGET MY GRANDMAS AND MY TRULY REMARKBLE SISTER IN LAWS THAT I AM SO THANK FUL FOR. THATS YOU AMY, JAMIE, JESSICA. AND AUNTS ALSO ALL OF THEM I LOVE YOU GUYS ALL VERY MUCH HAPPY MOTHERS DAY ALSO MY FRIENDS I LOVE YOU GUYS TOO AND HAPPY MOTHERS DAY THERE IS NOTHING BETTER THEN BEING A MOM, A SISTER ,A WIFE AND AUNT OR GRANDMOTHER THANK YOU FOR EVERYHRING U GALS DO. LOVE YA TARA

carleys first tooth

so i am laying in bed a few nights ago this has almost been a month ago. but any way i am laying in bed and carley comes down to my room and says mom i was looking at my self in the mirror and my tooth starred to wiggle so i said well let me see and she goes okay. I said well when ya get your age your teeth are going to fall out and grown up teeth will come in and she started crying and said i dont want to grow up. and i was laughing so hard i couldn't even comfort the poor thing and she says mom I AM NOT EVEN GOING TO BE ABLE TO SMILE OR EVEN TALK WITH OUT MY TEETH. AND FOR THOSE THAT NO CARLEY FOR OR NOT TO TALK YEAH RIGHT!! So needless to say her tooth came out a couple days after and she was fine once the tooth fairy sent her money and everything. and she has lost a second tooth.; also. THE WHOLE POINT I DIDENT PREPARE MY SELF FOR THIS AT ALL AND IT WAS SO SAD BUT I FELT REALLY BAD CAUSE I WAS TO BUSY LAUGHING. LETS JUST SAY I AM GLAD I HAD SOME MOTRIN ON HAND CAUSE I FINALLY GAVE HER SOME TO CALM DOWN. SO IT WAS DRAMA.

To My Favorite Sister-In-Law

I would like to write this post to my favorite Sister she is the best I don't know what I would ever have done without her. She fixed my Blog so that its working now. I Just can't stand to think where I would be without her help Probably the nut house. My Kids just love there Aunt Jamie, and Carley thinks she is the best anut ever.......I love you Jamie

P.S. Tara your The best

dance recitals 2009

So this was carleys 2nd year of dance and she did an awesome job. the last 2 weeks are the worse with dance practices and recitals coming up can get pretty complated they did a disney theme this year and it was awesome. carley was in mary poppins and it was way cute and alot of fun to watch. they had a ladies class this year and they were in the goofy movie and camron just laughed he thought it was so funny. but i want carley to know how proud of her i am and she is so fun to watch. love ya sis good job