Mixed emotions

Well to say the LEAST things were ruff the 8th at our house.. We happily In Jan and Feb let some little boys come into our loving home and we had 20 extra fingers, 2 extra hands and 20 feet , 20 toes and 2 REALLY BIG HEARTS and we let that all go, It was the hardest thing I ever have DONE. I opened my heart and my home and my cute kids to enjoy these boys, WE miss them LIKE crazy already. Broken was amazing and had such a sweet spirit.. He would laugh and giggle when we talked to him, He really came to our home BROKEN and left a VERY Happy boy. HE was a GOOD baby even when we first got him has much pain has he was in .. He was good. I miss his smile . I miss him saying mama and especially has he has a bubble in his mouth . I miss snuggles and i miss when he claps. My heart hurts and I pray everyday they are SAFE. That is all I want. I loved this boy like my own . He made me Happy . Now Im sad hes gone . I hope to maintain contact and to be able to see him but some text mom sends me makes me frustrated and wonder why, Im struggling finding if we should do this again I pray about it often and have answers but am still weary. Im trying to heal a broken heart and its not EASY . I also pray one day they will be back..

Sass made HUGE progress why here and I loved him like my own. He was a good kid and really just wanted to be loved and some attention . He will do great things . we miss him to terribly.. He was so exited to go home but he knew is mom and Broken only new me has his mom. We opened our lives to this and took on a lot .. But I wouldn't change it for the world.. We love these little people and just want the best for them..

So I have a lot of people ask will you do this again? Right now my heart needs to heal. I need to go into being a mom from 5 to 3 . I need to be a wife and mom right now for my little family. I do have answers to my prayers and I know what I am suppose to do I just need to heal mY broken heart .. Has for now we are on HOLD to the whole thing time will tell. I probably will re license

and HOPE Broken and Sass come back