A busy life

Well school is out and I can not be live it we have been so crazy busy with softball just a couple make up games this week for fun. We had lions tournament and it was great has always Carleys team did a great job and placed 2nd in lions. We were up against are other Gunnison team and it was a good game and our girls put up a good fight. Carley loves softball and did a great job this year I hope she keeps with it. Good Job sis !! Emika also played this year and did so good she didnt know what to think at first but did a great job the last couple tournament games she hit the ball and was so cute !! we are so proud of her !! We have been busy we still have Eve and from talking to the case worker we will still have her tell November it is looking like mom may get her back. We will just have to see the kids are still adjusting and  there are still moments that I wonder what we have got ourselves in to but its worth it it is a service act in our eyes. I still can not believe I will have a middle school er next year and a 3rd grader and Yes another year of Kindergarten I think this will be the best descion I made for her. So I have not blogged forever so lets just due a little run down real quick update!!

Jesse well he is Jesse and we love him we celebrated out 16 year wedding anniversary in May I can not believe it we have been toghtehr for 19years and I still re amber the day I met him it was the best day of my life. He is still working at the mine and it has its days for sure. We just wish he was on days so we can have him at night home with us, He was able to make it to a few softball games and he loves watching his kids grow into the little people they are. We love you baby so much.

Me well I have been super busy with kids between fostering and our own. it gets crazy busy!! I am loving summer so far there are days is all they want to do is fight. So basically I have been busy just running kids around and hanging out with my good friend I have blogged about her before Mrs. Amazing its always a great day when we are together!! I also just applied for a job I will let you all know later I just am hoping I get it . So wish me luck !!

Carley oh my I can not believe how this little girl has grown up !! I can not believe 6th grade . She dyed her hair blonde and I am still trying to get use to how grown up she is .. I love her she is such a big help around the house and helping with kids she can be a little spit fire at times and tryes to take on the mom role way to much . We are proud of her for all her accomplishments she did not miss 1 day of school all year either good Job Miss Dee

Camron wow I can not believe 3rd grade he is still a handful I don't think we would have him any other way though he can be so sweet and the a devil the next. We love him and are proud of him not sure what he will become . or what he will due. He loves wrestling but gives up to fast and I wish he would be more confident. I am sure he will play foot ball he seems to like it. he wanted to due baseball but with the 2 girls playing it makes it hard so maybe next year we will see. He also missed no days of school Good Job buddy !!

Oh Emika we just love the little person she is. she is funny, bossy and just crazy and defiantly the spoil est . We love her and are so proud of her we are so thankful for this little girl in our lives we could not ask for any better of kids. She is one of a kind for sure . I think when she gets older watch for her on Drill team she loves to dance .. we love you little girl !!

Eve well she is doing great she was nervous about not having school but seems to be adjusting to it now, We are not ones to just sit during the summer !! We are hoping for a campiing trip ASAP this month . Therapy is going good I personally thinks she likes going and visits are going great we are trying to get set dates for both and it seems to be working

SO there is a little bit of what has been going on

 we did go to the Payson open house what a beautiful sight and a good experience for the kids

 Free fishing day Mine party

 Championship games

 2nd place Good job girls !!!

he got one that night when we went again he was exited 

A big and hard decision

Well yesterday I got a call from the school about Emika. Has some of you know this is Emika is in Kindergarten she just turned 5 in August 2 weeks before school started. So I get this phone call saying you know Emika is not progressing and I think It may be a good idea to hold her back. One she is the youngest in the class so I bawled cause I kind of knew and had my doubts about putting her in kindergarten this early. So after alot of questions and alot of thought and prayer. I have decided to hold her back it is not easy but I feel she will progress this following year the only thing that has stopped me from a possible no is the friends she has here in Axtell are all in Kindergarten . I know she will make new friends has bubbly has she is. Its just hard to think about. I am sad in it all. I just need to do what is best for here learning and this grade is the easiest place to hold them back. So I hope she will do great and process things a lot better this following year. I need to talk to the principal about it today cause all in all it is our decision. So wish has luck!!

Visit

Visit went OK. Eve has been since then a little quiet. SO we will see how therapy helps her express it all tomorrow. I am sad that this has taken place again. I really hope for Eve's sake mom or grandma can get her back . But has for now we are enjoying her and she is so ready for school to get out. Time frame wise on her we are still not sure. We do know this we are licencing  this month which brings me back to I guess I better clean my house . and little things.

Dance has came to an end

Well dance recitals came  to an end last weekend all 3 girls did a FABULOUS job.. I am so proud of them all I have pics of Carley and Emika also Eve but Eve's Will not be on here due to security reasons just so you know. so here are pics

 Oh Stella we love her

 Miss Dee she is so cute! we love her to

 Emika and Mrs. Ashton we are so sad to see her go and we will miss her dearly this has been Emika teacher for a couple years and they have such a special bond. We have built an awesome friendship and we will miss her terribly. Emika got out of the car that night and was crying and I said what is wrong and she goes I already miss my Mrs. Ashton . We love you girl !!

 and them again

 Carley

 This was my favorite dance this year and Mekesha Thank you for making her more sassy then she already is LOL We love her !! We love Mekesha to you are great thanks for all the hard work you do. WE love you and look forward to a great year next year!!

Eve did a great her first year also and loved it good job girls one proud mamma !! 

Back to visits

Well got a call today form the case worker for Eve and I guess we are back to visits with mom. The therapist  totally against it so is the case worker but moms lawyer is wanting them back. So any how I get to drive 88 miles to and home tomorrow and its alot . So I talked to Eve today about it when I got home and she is scared to death so I had to reassure her that it will be OK. So for the most part I feel bad about it. We all really still do not know Eve's story cause she has been taught her whole entire life that its always top secret  and that we LIE all the time and the truth is not the truth. So any how I will let you all know how it goes tomorrow . I'm not to happy about it either.

oh my !!

Well its been crazy at our house and lets just say not the KIDS. Well any way . Camron comes home yesterday and says mom I think Tinkerbell (the cat) is back and I said Cam I don't think so . He goes well there is a lot of meowing over by the shed. I'm going to go see. I'm like no you need to clean your room first and the basement OK he says. He gets that all done and says mom I'm going out side so I said OK. So here is the conversation Cam. mom I think you better come out side . Me WHY? Cam . Mom that meowing noise is Cabella (our dog) had Puppies. Me . are you flipping kidding me. Oh boy ! Jesse I told you she was pregnant hes not nice about it. So needless to say I go outside and there are puppies in my dog run. I thought maybe she was pregnant and she was up and running with the kids yesterday morning and I seen her a couple of times but she did not bark when the kids got home so. yeah she was in the dog run. She had 8 one dyed so there is 7. They are all very cute. They have been very attached to her so I don't know how many male or females there is yet. Need less to say if any one wants a puppy they are FREE I have a friend who is getting first dips. But she wants Carely to pick it out and I think we have figured that one out. Am I keeping any I am not sure. I know Jesse hates dogs and got us the last one so we are kind of up in the air and not sure yet !!

How fostering effects our own children

So I know this is a a little different of a post. But I think it is something that some of us over look. and this is just from my experience with having just Eve in our home. I don't think people realize that it also effects our children.. Yes these foster kids come in and have more problems then what we say and we really do not know the extent of abuse these kiddos have been threw until we open our heart and minds to them. and they trust us and open up. Sometimes we will never know what these kids have been threw. So I want to focus on with this post how it has affected my kids. There is kids at school that (bully) and I am sick of it. And yesterday Carley was the target of it all saying that she is mean to Eve and Carely and Eve have there days by all means. We have taught and told are kids there will be kids that come and go. you just need to open your heart mind and just love these kids. Carely has done an amazing job with Eve and I am proud of her. I have told Eve that she can not let these kids treat her sister like that cause all in the end it is Carely who has opened up her heart and loved her and has also opened up her bedroom to her and her life. So these people and kids that are not in this foster circle do not get that. It just doesn't affect these kids that come in to our home it affects our whole family. So some may be asking why but your kids threw this and self. One we knew what to except when we took fostering classes and all that. Why do I do this? One this is a service act from Heavenly Father and I believe I was called to do this,.How do I know that ? Heavenly Father works in mysterious ways and I had number of answers to my prayers about this. This fostering children is very close to heart and my families heart. Why do I put my kids threw it ? Again it is a service act and families serve together  and who else would take these kids in. IS fostering worth it? Absolutely I love fostering Eve she is our first placement for the most part she does great gets a long with every one. Does she have her moments? YES what kid doesn't. So basically I just want you to know yes my kids struggle and especially Carley. Carely knows we love her and we love everyone that is what the Savior taught was to love one another and we do our best! I want people to know its just not about the kids we foster it also affects our own kids in the matter. I am so thankful for the people that I have met threw foster and how we have all become good friends I am so thankful for the person that let my child have a melt down yesterday (also a good friend from foster) We will call her Amazing. I want her to know How thankful I am for her and for coming into my life when she did. and for excepting Carley. For being my friend when I know I am losing my mind and for telling me you know its okay to cry its okay to throw a fit. Thank you Amazing you know who you are. You are the best and I have to say what you said yesterday . For those who are not in this foster circle please butt out. you have no idea. The way to help a foster parent In my opinion is to not only ask how is your foster doing but also how are you doing? how are your kids? can I help you with anything? Alot of the times has foster parents we need. A hug! For someone to tell us we are doing a great job just has mothers we need those things and basically that is all we need. Sorry if this makes no sense to some. I am just a Mom, a mom with tons of love and a mom who knows what my child goes threw. I want my kids to know how much I do love them and am so thankful for them and the love they show. Even when know one is watching. I want to thank my husband Jesse I love you babe and thanks for all you do !!