I am beautiful

So alot of you are probably looking at this post and thinking were is she getting at RIGHT ?? Okay so Th night I had the opportunity to go to a fire side best thing about it was I went with Carley and of course the Nay girls .. so we it was awesome and so very spiritual I absolutely loved it and it was great her name was Audrey Bandley if you  get a chance look at her on you tube she is a very beautiful and talented lady.. Amazing speaker she talked about are self worth and our self esteem.. And to let us know that we are all spirt daughters of Heavenly Father and that we are all beautiful there was so much I took in that night and how mistakes should not define is and are self worth. So it started with she had to right a song for a beauty pageant and the question they had asked these girls was I AM BEAUTIFUL BECAUSE ?? So there was a catch to this also and they were not able to show there faces they had this sign with there answer so would that not be an awesome beauty pageant . cause really just think about that a min .. so some of there responses were I am beautiful because I can wear Camouflage and shoot a gun ( my kind of girl right there ) and then there were also some other really good and spirtial ones so have we been asked and challenged for 7 days I have thought about this a Lot and just with my past and who I am so here is what I have thought and the answers I have come up with... I am beautiful because i am full of life I look at  the positive more then the negative , I am cause I am a great mom and wife with super powers, (really moms and wife's we are think about it ) and I will come up with more and another one is I am beautiful because I am a daughter of my heavenly father. okay this lady was amazing and if you ever get a chance to here her speak DO IT!! This built my testimony so much and was such a great experience one I will never forget... So think about reasons You are beautiful and honestly if you want to share them on my blog with me and it would be a fun challenge .. I love all of you friends and family and you are all beautiful to me!!

Home Study

Well good news is we had are home study on Thursday . So of course WEN I was crazy trying to make my house look just perfect thanks to my awesome neighbor and awesome friend Chantelle came over and we got the inside looking perfect.. So the licencor  shows up Thursday morning .. does her interview and all that and I think it went very well. It was kind of like a job interview but I know in the long run it was all totally worth it and I am getting more exited to Foster these children In our home. I would say that Jesse is pretty ready to I have to say he has been so great with all this and all in all most of this was his idea also. I love him so much and am so thankful that we are in this together and that is wonderful. So back to the home study so inside was perfect!! So I was wondering about are bedroom spaces so we will be licenced for 1 but has you have a placement that also means a sibling group. So the girls room is not big enough even with bunk beds so but if some one in desperate need we can work around that so we can definitely get a boy for sure in Camron's room and also we can have a baby girl if she is 0-2 cause she can go in our room. So all in all we will basically see what happens that way.. EXITING RIGHT !!!

So the outside well has many of you know we just built a new house and knocked down the single wide trailer that we lived in for 6 years.. So there is a little bit of hazardous outside with some wood and nails and some windows that need to be cleaned up.. So if you talk to Jesse he will tell you we are DENIED.. PS don't listen to him we are not denied we just have some cleaning up to do but that we did some of it yesterday and then I have my awesome dad coming over today to help with some also.. SO the liccensor is still working on her end to get us licenced and we are working on our end and getting what needs done outside. Am I upset that are home study did not go has perfect has I thought.. absoultly not cause sometimes it takes from the outside looking in are licencor was great gave us a lot of pointers and was very understanding that is the think about foster care is they are glad that some one is willing to help these kids and are really great to work with you.. So it will still take another 2 to 3 weeks before she gets her paper work done and we are just kind of racing to see who gets done faster.. So we will see how it all goes and the next question is probally am I still Ready.. HECK YES I love reading blogs about this stuff and books and I am exited to have these kids have a safe haven until they can go back to there parents. Or if I can also adopt threw the foster care system I am very open to this. So most of you are probally asking what about attachment ?? Well trust me we have talked about this for a very long time and I am okay with it am I going to get attached absoultly that is what some of these kids need..I am exited for this oppurtinity and trust me we have done alot of praying and going to the temple I told Jesse it is amazing how you get your answers to your parayers and who they come from even if it is a total stranger. I told Jesse sometimes I feel we lack suppourt in it all but It is amazing how many pepole have told us that is GREAT and have given us suggestions on who to talk to or who has been threw something similar to what we are doing or who has been in the foster care system. So all in all we are exited to get this going still and its amazing how me and Jesse have been so strong in all of this and how we will countine to suppourt eachother and how amzing it has been to pray to heavenly Father and get our prayers answered in this cause all in all here is my thought we are all childern of god and his this not what he would want us to do is help take care of one of his childern of course is this my destination in life a little in site in my patricatl blessing it states that I was born to SERIVE is that not serving my heavenly father I think so am I met  to be a foster parent I THINK SO . am I going to be great at it probally not we are not perfect and we are not expected to be ..

My thoughts

Okay so the past two weekends me and Jesse went to Beaver to take the foster care classes and WOW I took so much from them I can not believe what some of these parents have done to the kids or the situation these kids are but in.. Your next question probably is am I ready for this YES I am and I am exited and nervous.. I am hopeful and very passionate about helping these kids.. I am nervous about the attachment of it all, but that is what these kids need is some one to love them and if we can only be there safe haven for just a little while. I hope has parents and has a family we can just do that.. I am exited to help these kids and take care of them tell there parents can do that for them. I hope we can also be there and help the parents and have a relationship with them to get them on that right track. I also went in to this hoping to adopt so if that is possible we will take on that challenge to. I am so thankful for my husband who is also up for this challenge we have both learned so much about different parenting and I think we are on the right track for sure.. I am exited to finish getting this paper work in and getting bedrooms ready so we can take these kids in and Hopefully have are home study done sometime next month would be great.. So we will keep ya posted for sure.. I love being a mom to my kids and the difference they make in my life they are truly amazing kids and I appreciate each one of them so much...So I mailed off all the rest of the paper work last week just waiting to here back from licencing if they do not call by the end of this week I will call them I still have lots to do and get rooms set up but I think it will only take a day being that I already have  the beds and am exited to get that going.. just need to paint the bunk beds that will go in the girls room./// and then we will see how it goes I will for sure keep every one posted on this.. has I am so exited I am actually reading a book right now called fostering Love and it is so good and I love to read about other peoples experiences .. I am exited for this new journey in life and can not wait to help some of these kids out.. I love kids and I love to watch them learn and grow and am very passionate about this .. Which speaking of growing children UMM YEAH kindergarten registration is this month and honestly I keep thinking about it and I am SAD I know that day I send her off will be very heart breaking and I am NOT ready ... well Sorry it took me so long for an update.. life gets super busy or I am super lazy I have not decided yet... well I will post later for sure need to cook dinner and then off to Zumba !!!

March Goals

March being we are almost to the middle of it

1. continue to work out

2. Be happy

3. have some fun spring break with my kids if the weather permits

4. take foster care classes we are scheduled for the end of the month thanks to my awesome family willing to help us out.. thank you so much .

5. lose like 5lbs

6. start sheet rock

7. be a great example to my kids and love them unconditionally. they are my life

8. Just be myself and be happy don't sweat the small stuff

Wrestling has began

Well on the 1st we had Gunnison wrestling tournament I am so proud of Camron he is doing so much better this year and loves it still he got pinned his 1st match but the 2nd one he did not give up and did great he got frustrated and a little emotional but hope he will grow out of that in a couple of years his 3rd one he just got pinned cause he was done.. but he did take 4th so and all in all we had a good time his cousin was  there to and they both did great ..

February Goal update

okay Feb goals were
1. Go to the temple (did that and it was wonderful)

2. Workout at least 3 times a week ( have been doing great and sometimes I do it twice a day )

3. Go out for my birthday (we kind of did this but then had banana splits with the family that night )

4. not to yell for at least a week ( I am getting better )

5. Be happy (for the most part I am)

6. lose 5 lbs (well I lost a couple )

7. plan primary lessons to a T ( I am still doing okay )

8. start Sheetrock in basement (um maybe 2 marrow )

9. deep clean bathrooms (done )

10. to be spiritual and seek those out. (I struggle )

February Update

Well being that I have not blogged in a while well like 2 weeks any one surprise.. LOL okay well any ways I think I am just going to update pics and tell about them not to much has happened ..

our newest project a railing it is looking good pics has soon has we get it done.. 

she danced at the ball game 

she is doing so good we just love her spunk 

she sure does love her daddy 

we let her get her hair dyed 

before 

the process we kept telling her beauty is pain.. LOL 

after she is absolutely beautiful and I just love her so very much.. Thanks Grandma MacArt for making her so HAPPY 

the monkey hat is done yeah my 4th HAT finished 

she danced and she has to pose every time 

there are those cute girls 

Valentine box Ninja Turtle of course 

and a cute little cupcake this thing took me 3 days to do.  There is a little update I will blog more later have had a sick kid home today so she needs to go bath and just relax.. Have a good night